A few poems I wrote for my husband, my long-time love and inspiration. We met the first day of an English class at the University of Michigan on January 17, 1972. I was nineteen and he was twenty. I was a zoology major and he was an economics major, both of us stepping out. Who knew what lay ahead?
6/18/96
I Come Back
to your waiting arms
and put my ear
to your heart
and breathe
and feel safe.
From that supported space
I can explore
and risk
and grow,
knowing I can always go
back to your waiting arms.
Margaret Dubay Mikus
© 1996
3/22/99
To Stephen
(approaching our twenty-fifth married year)
I used to have
all the time
in the world
to lay in your arms
and listen
to your heart beating.
Life went on,
but nothing more important
has come along.
Margaret Dubay Mikus
© 1999
2/13/08
Mutually Lucky
When I told a bit of our story,
a 36 year long story,
Rich said you were lucky to have me,
and I felt we were mutually lucky.
When one would have left
the other held on
and when conflict arose
both worked toward resolution.
And when Alex asked me today
if we were getting special presents
I said “not to be corny—
for us every day is Valentines Day.”
And it’s true.
Thank you for going through
what we’ve been through.
I’m lucky to have you.
Margaret Dubay Mikus
© 2008
3/22/08
A Summing Up
You are my weakness and strength,
my ballast in time of storm,
the wind that blows through
my occasionally stale room,
my love.
My joy, my delight,
and if we sometimes fight,
my joy again in rapprochement.
To be held and consoled,
to laugh with and discuss
the news of the day, with wit if
not always agreement.
To be myself as much as
I would reveal, yet not
feel exposed and vulnerable.
With you I am safe,
supported and protected,
held in the strong arms
of love, my love. How long
has this gone on?
Years and years and years,
my love.
You want me to have what I long for
and I want you to have what you desire,
and together, hand in hand, we find
the path through and to Love,
my love.
Margaret Dubay Mikus
© 2008
5/29/08
New Mexico Vacation
What began with a coyote
walking across the high desert road
illuminated by our headlights
and ended with a gift box
of chocolate truffles given
at the last for our anniversary,
was filled to the top
with all manner of experience,
all forms of weather,
all levels of elevation.
One day easily melted into the next
with minimum of planning.
Love encircled us
and drew to us
beauty, peace, contentment, healing.
What was needed arrived…
with no fuss
and was embraced by us
with joy and ease
and awareness.
Margaret Dubay Mikus
© 2008
7/26/08
Far Away, My Love
You feel so far away my love,
though you’ve only gone to Michigan
and I stayed here to rest.
I reach over to pat your head
though you are sleeping in another bed.
Your presence is here strong
and real as anything.
And though I long for touch or smile
I feel you across the miles
thinking, loving, being with family,
and I charge you, dear one
to also represent me.
Margaret Dubay Mikus
© 2008
10/27/08
For You, Yet Again
(for my husband)
Some day you and I
will no longer exist in this form,
not just metamorphosis of aging:
wrinkles, gray hair, spots
where was pristine skin,
not raspy voice instead of mellow song,
but truly gone,
no hugs, no sparkle eyes, or smiles,
no encouragement or discussion of days events,
a photo as reminder two-dimensional,
what we loved as memento
of life well-lived.
Whatever we do next
the molecules of our bodies
will scatter in ultimate recycling.
What impressions our feet
have made on the earth
is all that will remain.
Yet I will talk to you
not needing words
and we will do as was agreed,
and if we stay together
or go our separate ways then
is no matter
for what was love
is always love
and that is that.
Margaret Dubay Mikus
© 2008
“I Come Back” is found in my book, As Easy as Breathing, in my Life Support Cards ™ and on my CD, Full Blooming: Selections from a Poetic Journal (2007).
